So much going on, so many thoughts so many moments.
First things first I LOVE my new job.. My team are amazing, the job is fun and I have so much responsibility.. I feel respected and I love going to work every day ( still )
I made new friends in work - the coffee club - it's nice to feel part of something again
Mette is the team lead along side me for SONOS and Paul and Seb are team leads for Nuance. We have fun and I love that they're all a lot older than me, makes the conversation a little different.
This week in work I have been conducting a lot of interviews to expand our team. It's been exciting as a lot of it have done myself!
Daniel and I are on strange terms again .. We're so happy but then there are things where when they happen they feel like deal breakers for me.. I get so angry and we do not understand eachother.. Like at all.
For some reason Daniel has started staying out till 4 in the fucking morning etc just because he has days off and he's always at Aaron's like ALWAYS and I just don't know how to deal with it. I feel so angry at him for just never putting me first.
We had a serious chat the other day and he had been different since then he's has been texting me nicer and a little sweeter.. I just feel resistance and I often wonder if we are a right match... Only when we are arguing though. When we are happy I think how can I ever think these thoughts. I just am so confused .. How long do you hold on? How long do you keep trying?
I remember thinking these thoughts with my ex and I'm just worried.
How much do I invest?
There are just so many things that we disagree on and drive me mental I guess it's just a case of realising if I can live with them forever or not.
" through the good and the bad we can concour it all, one day we're gonna come back an relive those thoughts, on day we will look at the past with love, with love "
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