happy 1 and two twelfths anniversary :)

18/10/11

My gorgeous man :)

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I was working in d2 today, and megan and i spent the whole day discussing relationships etc doing what we do best!

I happened to mention that i wished steve would surprise me with a hot choc again like he used to...what did the wee mind reader do??? walked into my shop with a hot chocolate not just any hot chocolate...my favourite :) along with a muffin! mmmm

he then disappeared..wondered where hed gone off to and turns out he was tryna get us cinema tickets for THE LION KING!! but there were no showings :( so we went to Jimmy Cheungs! my first time, Steves treat SUPA YUMMAH!!!

dont look at me like that...

Sexy man :)

Then we went back to mines and got SO COSY mmm and watched the break up...not my choice..Steves.. this was his way of getting out of watching the Notebook haha.

he was SO cuddly tonight i loved it, it was honestly as if hed heard everything me and megan were talking about cos i was saying how i missed him being cuddly! ah SUCH A GOOD DAY :) 

happy happy HAPPY. :) :) :) :) 

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17/10/11

STAYED AT ANGELAAAAA'S :)

she cooked me duck for dinner mmm :) then we had a massive musical bath night, i loved it :) she keeps me sane!
Pheonix was beein supa cute too :)

until angela started breaking her..

happy

 plain creepy..

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Also bought a new dress for meeting steve :) Tenner with my discount from d2, LOVE IT :)

Steve came it looking dead sexy in a shirt too :) 

Dinner a la steve!

COLD NOSES AT ICE SKATING!!

Steve is naturally very god at ice skating, and i must admit it was sexy watching him go! i was careful...but managed not to fall BONUS! Won myself a wee night in watching the notebook with Steve soon :)

afterwards we went to Luca's ice cream, where i had this BEAST MMMM, Steve paid..

i bought the ingredients for dinner :)

Dinner cooked by Steve AMAZING potato wedges, with steak MMMM<3

Then we watched ' The big labowski' which tbh wasn't mine and Steves cup of tea..but he promised me the Notebook as our next movie in return :) yay! Seeing him next on Tuesday after work! and hopfully we we'll go for breakfast on Wed but dont know yet :)

over all an amazing day with him :) i loved every second!

a couple of nights ago :)

ONE WHOLE DAY TOGETHER.

Steve and i are finally on good terms again, i could not be happier! :)

Were just having a good time again, im so glad we sorted things.

right now hes sleeping next to me...big sweeepy head!!!

i'm waiting for him to get up because we finally have   

A WHOLE DAY  to spend together...

a very rare occasion!!:)

The last full day we spent together was Germany...before that june!!

We decided to go ICE SKATING!! :D i'm so exited...and then hopefully Steve will make me dinner later :P well see...

So last night we went to a college party but left a bit earlier and got a dominos and snuggled up at home :)

Feli making my dominos! mmm mm!!

ALSO

WENT TO GO SEE RIHANNA AND ME AND ANGELA TOUCHED HER HAIR!!!!

Progress...

Steve spoke to me last night, it wasn't for long because i had to go, but still he made contact, i still don't know where i stand with him and its driving me crazy :( i'd be ok with the space if i knew that he was still mine, right now i don't know anything.
i don't think he will end it, but at the moment this is absolute torture. just waiting. to be kept or dumped.

i just want him back right now.

i want my bear back so bad :( i miss him so much! i'm so scared i might loose him :(

Angela Says:

" If you love someone let them go, if they love you they will come back to you, and if they don't love you, they never will. "

Space will never harm anything.


I just really hope he sees that our relationship, is worth keeping and doesn't throw it all away.
I want to try so hard this time, to fix everything, i can't believe how close we are to maybe loosing everything.
I haven't heard from him since 12 yesterday, i know he will be enjoying the space, i look forward to hearing from him, i hope its sooner rather than later, either way when it comes i hope its good news :)


Missing my bear, lots. Everything reminds me of him, grass market, hay market station, blink 182 came on last night, my 'velcro legs,' dreadnought, most of the music on my ipod, almost everything in my room.
I hope he to see'd how much we have together and doesn't give up. I just want him back, whatever it takes, i'm so sick of arguing and i'm so angry at myself for pushing him so far over he edge, hes been through so much for me, especially when i was on the pill, hes such an amazing guy and i just want to be amazing for him too.

I hope he's doing well. Can't stop thinking about him.