Steve and i are no longer together.
we spoke about it together, but in the end it was his final decision. I understand his reasons and that he can't deal with any more stress. I still want him though, i want to try again, i want to be happy with him, again.
I still cant't quiet come to terms with the fact that were over, it was only last night, but i don't want to believe it.
We agreed to still be friends, but even that takes time. I miss him so much already.
i wonder how he feels, i wonder if he misses me.
We went to Alter Bridge last night, my birthday present to him.
The night was all kinds of weird, we were cuddling, then angry then having a good time then things were awkward.
when we got to mine we just sat and talked, at about 4am we came to point where it was over.
the last things he said to me where
"speak soon, see ya"
speak soon? when is soon? and see ya...i doubt it.
i know this is probably for the best, maybe i'll see it in time, or maybe time will heal us and there will be a better time in the future. Right now, i don't know.
i want him back, and i wish he'd want me back too.
i know i still love him, before he left in the car i give a nice hug, and we kissed i told him i loved him and he said he still loves me.
But all the arguing is too much for his stressy life and he doesn't have time for a relationship right now, which is partly why weve gone so wrong, he didn't have the time, strength and energy to help fix up this relationship, so were over.
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