Feelings

I've been struggling to understand how I feel. So far I hadn't really cried and then yesterday I hit the wall - in work - and I just cried. I sat in the bathroom and cried. I'm starting to wonder if I've made a mistake, but we still need time. There would be no sense in getting back together now as nothing would have changed. Daniel needs to get his own place, find his own way. 

I hope at that point we will both be ready for each other. 

I'm in two minds about what to do, I want to know how he feels, but I also don't want to get his hopes up and then down the line maybe I don't want to get back - maybe he doesn't even want to get back together?

I'm starting to miss all the good things, they keep coming back to me. I need to remember that there were also a lot of bad times, and that's why we're not together anymore. We didn't make eachother happy. 

I think I'm just struggling with being alone, it's always been a problem of mine. 

I was feeling so confident all week, tear free and happy, I have hit a wall now and I know why I have however I need to focus on today. What am I doing today, what's going to make me happy today. Not whos made me happy in the past and what I no longer have. 

Living for today!