Wildabobble: The Finish Line.

Tuesday, 10 January 2012

The Finish Line.

My first flowers i've ever had bought for me.

i thought i knew it all,

i've been through the highs, said all my good byes.

its not worth fighting for, if one of us is sure, dying, trying to find love's cure.

i have waited all my life, to paint these city's red, the thoughts i've always had stuck inside my head,

its not worth waiting for if one of us wants more, and one of us is dying trying to find loves door.

when we learn how to fly we forget how to walk,

when we learn how to sing, don't wanna hear each other talk,

when we know what we want, we forget what we need,

when you find what you are, you'll forget about me.

here we are at the finish line.

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my dress, and bowa that i got at the party! :)

Me and Heather :)

Me and Lornalita :)

Hey Sexy!

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So, I had my Primark party on Saturday and it was a lot of fun! Didn't stay very long as i got picked up for the d2 party! Paul and i were close and kissed at the party, and a lot of people spoke to me about us it was looking hopeful, but now that i know how i feel its not the best idea.

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After the party, paul and i went back to the hotel, He hid my eyes when he took me inside and left an outfit for me to change into, in the bathroom.

When i came out there whole room was lit up with candles and there were flowers everywhere, it was the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me.

Paul with a Rose.

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We were both very drunk, so the night didn't go as we had planned.

In the morning we talked about what had happened, i felt guilty and like i didn't deserve everything Paul had done for me, I told him to cancel the plans we had for him to take me out to dinner that night because i didn't want him to spend anymore money on me. He was hurt and upset that i didn't to be with him and it kills me that i've hurt him so much :(

When i saw how much effort he had put into everything i realised that i felt guilty and it must be because my feelings aren't as strong for him, i don't want to lead him on. I know that being with Scott also upsets Paul which makes me feel really shitty.

As i am still seeing Scott, Paul has decided he wants some space to help.

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Paul making me laugh like a goon :)

uussssss :)

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a wee while back...

But i love it :)

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Moving on to Scott...

So Scott came and got me yesterday and we went for a drive, was really cool just talking and getting to know each other as he's a very interesting person. We weren't close all night which i kind of liked because i don't want to move to fast.

i got a goodbye kiss though :)

I saw him again tonight. We got a Domino's two for Tuesdays!

This time we were a lot closer, we watched 'The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button' and cuddled.

We also kissed a few times which was nice, he always winds me up and it makes me smile, he's also very good to cuddle.

He's taking me on a big fancy date on Sunday im so exited!!

Out for dinner then to a wee bar, i think!

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Angela and I went out in Edi! we had a great laugh :)