Me.

I've been feeling a little odd lately, lots of changes happening around me and in my mind. Roller coasters of emotions and not to mention the weather. Huh, maybe thats why.

I have a few big things happening in my life. Tomorrow i have the final interview for a possible huge new job opportunity, which now, after having a taste of it - i really want!

Daniel and I are on a roller coaster but the best thing about that is that we are really enjoying the ride, and were doing that together. One minute we hate each other - god life is so awful and then we kiss and everything is okay again and it makes you realise how precious your happy moments are. This is the pro of an argument, you catch a glimpse of what you've got, when you've forgotten it..or alternatively you realise it's what you don't want. I think confrontational arguments are good. Not in the moment, but they are good. Although i do enjoy sitting around, listening to the sad music and crying about 'how awful my life is' for 10 mins then realise i'm being an idiot. For me its like a way to reconnect with my emotions. I guess everyone has their own ways.

Anyway, the reason my cogs are turning tonight is after watching The Breakfast Club, i had a few thoughts.

This film was sold to me as 'life affirming' ' the ending sums it up perfectly' and just god damn brilliant, yet i couldn't be more disappointed. I guess at the end your supposed to feel happy and reassured that it's ok to be a princess, an outcast, a criminal etc but my thoughts where " yeah i already know that.. get to the point." After reading some reviews i understood that this shows teenage life and helps you feel ok about your own, but at the time I already felt like that. I never felt all alone or thought I was the only one with a tough teenage life I knew fine well everyone was going through the same shit different situation.

This film made me realise how in touch and secure I am with myself. I can really understand, connect and read people and i always presumed this was normal but over the last few months i'm beginning to see that it's not and this truly was a gift from my dad.

He once told me ' we have antenna's you an me, we can hook onto peoples frequencies like a radio and understand and communicate with them ' I never quite understood it at the time but now i really see. This is what is going to help me succeed in being the best version of me, that i can be.